sweet slumber…
“When you’re little night time is scary because there are monsters hiding right under the bed. When you get older, the monsters are different. Self-doubt, loneliness, regret, and though you may be older, and wiser, you still find yourself scared of the dark.”
Sleep, it’s the easiest thing to do, you just close your eyes. But for so many of us, sleep seems out of our grasp. We want it, but we don’t know how to get it. But once we face our demons, face our fears, and turn to each other for help. Night time isn’t so scary, because we realize we aren’t all alone in the dark.”
-Grey’s Anatomy Episode 8 Season 5
Something new in my life: I’ve started walking in my sleep! Aces.
Not just walking around like zombie but actually talking, doing things, interacting with Rugby Dude, and even…ahem…if you know what I mean. I have no memory or recollection of the events the morning after. I would never even know anything happened until RD tells me! I wake up with strange bruises, wearing less than I did when I went to bed, lights are on that weren’t, doors open…its scary!
RD has told me I get up in the middle of the night, flip on the bedroom lights, slam doors, and walk around angry and talking to myself. And sometimes he says he has tried to get me back into bed by yelling loudly at me, and I don’t respond…the thing that scares me is-WHY DON’T I WAKE UP WHEN HE YELLS AT ME IN MY SLEEP???
This is really strange to me because normally I am such a light sleeper that I wake up at any little noise or movement. I mean- how many times have I written about how I can’t sleep through snoring and the bed moving? TONS! How come I don’t wake up when I’m running into things, falling out of bed, hearing loud noises, etc? It freaks me out when I hear from RD that I have done it…he always says “you did your thing again last night”…and I cringe when he explains my unconscious actions. Sometimes he even tells me about conversations we have had in bed at night and I have no memory of the event …poor RD, he must be scared to even talk to me after I’ve gone to bed, he doesn’t know who he is talking to- sleep Jenni or awake Jenni!
I don’t think I’ve done it in a while (hopefully) , I noticed it happens on nights when I may take a dose of Tylenol PM or cold medicine, and also on nights I have a mixed drink before bed. So I try not to take even a half a dose of sleep aids anymore, I take a 1/4th of a dose. And I try not to drink hard alcohol on work nights for fear that I somehow get restless at some point in the night and that’s when the show begins. Hopefully RD wont leave me before I get this under control…I cant imagine how annoying it must be.
Until next time- Sweet Dreams…
