the jenni chronicles

So? I’m a little perturbed.

I am feeling a little bit lately that Rugby Dude doesn’t want to spend time with me, alone, without friends around. Every weekend now for about two months he has been off rafting, visiting friends, going to baseball games, golfing, blah blah blah. Granted I have been invited to some of these get-togethers, but we have only spent one weekend together ALONE in I don’t know how long.

So this weekend, once again, he wants to go rafting with friends. I turned him down. I want him all to myself! I don’t want to hang out with friends, or camp or raft or do anything but be together and find our own fun- together. I expressed my feelings about this and he agreed to stay at home this weekend with me.

So I got all excited and started planning our weekend. What will we do? Will it be the Greek Festival, or the Pride fest, or museums, or shopping, or a movie and where will we eat? Will it be a nice wine and cheese night or will we go out to a restaurant? It made me ecstatic for our weekend together.

The thing is, I don’t think he is excited about it at all.

He seems bored with the idea already. Its annoying me.

How come when I am all jazzed up to spend time with him, he isn’t? I want him to be like “oh I can’t wait too” because that’s how I feel! How come he doesn’t reciprocate my feelings? I want him to feel the same way about me as I feel about him! And when I turn down his offer to go to a baseball game, how come he can’t say “okay well what would you rather do?” and plan something together. Instead I get left at home by myself.

How come he only wants to be together when friends are involved? Where did the togetherness go? I still feel it, how come he doesn’t? Maybe he really doesn’t feel the same sort of excitement that I feel for him. Maybe he really isn’t that into me?

Am I completely off base here by being upset?

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