for the love of god, let me off this crazy ride
Written on December 7, 2006
You know, sometimes there are those days when you should just stay in bed? Today was one of those days. Its only 445 and I already feel like going to bed. What a roller-coaster!
I went into the interview this afternoon with oomph under my belt. I felt happy! I felt optimistic! I felt confident! But as soon as I met with the first of four women to interview me- I felt inadequate. One after the other they came into the conference room and pummeled me with their questions. I could feel my body losing its posture, as I sank lower and lower into my chair. By the last interview I was loony. I felt I had blown it and it was all that I could do not to completely RUN out of the place!
I even tried to text Rugby Dude in-between interviews to let him know I was blowing it. No cell service. Ugh. I did call him immediately afterwards, and was on the verge of tears telling him how bad I had done. I found out I must be an emotional eater when after a haze of driving home I found myself at Taco Bell! But those nachos were the best nachos ever! And after the horrible day so far, I DESERVED THEM! :)
My day soon took a turn when Destiny called me an hour later. I got the job!!! We chatted for a bit and she congratulated me and I was so relieved. But then she dropped a bomb on me, they dropped the salary by two dollars! What? I told Destiny I couldn’t survive on that kind of pay, I don’t know how anyone could. Why????
Sigh
I just went to the corner store and got myself a six pack, and I plan to drink the whole thing. Why bother to stay sober for tomorrow? I just love to drown my sorrows- Miller Light and me go way back. Ahh yes, there is nothing better than Taco Bell and beer…my stomach is going to love me later.
I can’t put it into words better than this: In the words of the great actor Ice Cube in his memorable role in Friday; I am getting drunk tonight “cause it’s Friday; you ain’t got no job… and you ain’t got sh*t to do” Ahhh Friday, I just don’t know why it didn’t win best picture that year. Great movie. “Because a lot can go down between Thursday and Saturday.”
My saving grace today? Tonight is the best night of the week for television. I think I will snuggle up on the couch with a little Ugly Betty, a little McDreamy and Meredith, and a little Men in Trees. Mix all that with a little Miller Lite, and a snuggly dog and you get a perfect night of pouting.
Anyone want to adopt an unemployed alcoholic with bad gas?
-Jenni
Filed in: me.
oh man, how could they lower the salary?! that stinks. hope you find something!
karen
Let’s say it was um, $7 and then went to $5, isn’t $5 more than the zero dollars you are making right now? Or tell them you will meet them half way, you have the right to negotiate…the longer you go without a job, the worst it looks to employees, suck it up and take the job but continue job searching, you never know, you may just be happy – or they may give you a raise after only a few months
no need to wallow in your own created depths of despair for no reason
try not to be so dramatic and look at the gloomy side all the time, you got a job offer!! It’s time to celebrate!
I will take the pay that I deserve #1, and #2 I will take the pay that I need to survive. I am a single person trying to make it in the world, thats not so much but it is more than most people who have a significant other realize…employers should understand that. I will NOT take less than I am worth, no matter what that is. I am worth more than what they were offering. And I cannot survive by myself on less than what I am worth.
Hey sweetie, that totally sucks that they would lower the pay. But think about this, at least you know you didn’t bomb in your interviews (one of my own weak points-I hate interviews). You got offered the job, so that’s something right? Good luck, I hope this staff firm finds you something else that is more reasonable. My fingers are crossed for you!!
Also, thanks for stopping by and letting me know you were moving. Love it! It doesn’t take me 15 minutes to get a comment posted on your site! Yay!
On a personal note, thank you for your message the other day. It cheered me. It helps knowing that I can talk to someone that has been through it, too.
Talk to you later!
hi Jenni!
Congrats on the job, but are you kidding me? $5 an hour? Is that even legal? I thought minimum wage was at least $6. Well, keep your head up and keep trecking… damn right you are worth more!
By the way, that friend you found on myspace named Sara — my friend was named Sarah! Isn’t that funny!
Take care and hang in there,
~Nicole
Hi Jenni,
I cannot beleive they lowered the pay and to $5 an hour. Isn’t tht below minomum wage? I live in CA and minomum wage is like $8 an hour or something. You can get a job at McDona;ld’s out here and make more than that. I don’t think anyone can live off of $5 an hour. The last time I made $5 an hour I was in high school and living at home. That is just pure crazy. And who is this woman wo thinks she can judge you. I am so glad you told her off. She derserved it. I wish you the best of luck in your job search and DO NOT settle for something less than you are worth. Do not sell yourself short. We will find the perfect job. It just may take some time. Good luck sweetie.
Karla
P.S. I love your blogs.
Oh how I feel your pain. I know exactly what your feeling. I found myself in the same predicament. I found that taking a job for less than you are worth actually will take away from searching for the job you want and deserve, not to mention that having a positive attitude usually ends up in the toilet. Keep searching, you’ve got a positive attiude, something good will end up in your lap.
$5/hour is not a living wage. Seems like Destiny needs to work harder for you! Will the staffing agency keep you on if you refuse a job offer?
(For those who care, Texas adpots the Federal miniumum wage, which is currently $5.15 per hour.)
aww…Jenni…that sucks. I can’t believe they offered you less money. That’s horrible! Definitely don’t take less than what you’re worth though. Something wil come along soon, and they’ll “show you the money”. And, I’m glad you told Delilah off too…like you said, who the hell is she to judge anyone?
Keep the faith!
*hugs*
Hi Jenni – I really do think $5.00 an hour is illegal. There is no way anyone can live on that amount of money.
Anway what I wanted to tell you is that I just steered Nikki to a temp service. She wants a job doing clerical work and is having a hard time finding one. I used to work for Kelly Servies and I absolutely loved it. It was flexible and I got positions with top companies. I was always asked to stay on. I stayed with Kelly Services though because I know I wasnt’ planning to stay in Connecticut and it wasn’t fair to an employer to take a job there. But there are other services other than Kelly. I am hoping this works out for Nikki. Keep trying Jen – you will succeed. No one deserves to work for $5.00 an hour.
Miller Lite huh? I’m a Bud Light person myself. Am emailing you to get on the Christmas Card list. Have an awesome weekend.
Deb
Ah Jen that sucks! Congratulations on getting the job but shame on them for then dropping the wages !!! Totally understand the beer , nachos, dog and McSteamy. I’m currently sipping wine, eating choc and hugging my new pup Amber (Thank Cody for the dig toy advice) so you go girl and have some treats x x You still need a dog sitter ? Give us a shout next time lol He can visit the UK or we’ll visit him.
Oh Jen, I know what you mean about feeling like a complete dumb ass in an interview. The job I have now was so hard to get with all the hoops I had to jump through. Two tests, a polygraph test, a drug test, and an interview with two Lt. and two Sgt. I walked out of that interview feeling like a complete fuck up. Oh well, I got the job. Don’t worry, you’ll find something. But as far as them lowering the pay, that’s pretty nasty. Wouldn’t want to work for a place that did that! Keep in touch! :)
I’m sorry, that stinks.
What makes the Hannah/Ricky shower story funny is not that he was bothered by her going potty in front of her, but that he thought they would get in trouble for being in the bathroom together. Still thinking like a single guy living in his girlfriends grandparents house….
Hm. you could start a union and strike until the assholes are on thier knees and then they will have to pay you more. I dont know. Maybe that isnt terribly realistic. Maybe you could take the job on the condition they assess that in 3 months, and then keep looking? I had luck with temp agencies in unionized environments… but I dont know what the story with that would be there. I was lucky to get into the temp pool at the university I was going to (there were alot of non students in the pool too…) they paid well, and then the seniority built up. But you remember how bored I was last summer :)…. I have never been paid so much to do so little. My bitterness coming through- people are assholes, and they pay people (particularly women) as little as possible. You may have to put up with the shit, but dont let it get to you…
Hrmm…well how bad’s the gas? = P